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I think now, unless something really takes my interests, I'm giving up on making CDLC.

There's a few reasons for this.

1. I'm not improving while playing music. I can't play. I can write, and I know how to use VST's, I post my music here https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCx7EGZD_iyKzWP_kgveSMTQ. My metal cover of Ys Seven Mother Earth Altago which will come out in at least a week, is amazing. I love what I've done with it. But with guitar playing, I just can't do it. And that leads into the 2nd point.

2. I'm bored. To be honest, I'd rather be playing the hardest songs all the time, but I don't feel comfortable about it in my current situation. I could probably dedicate my time to playing Animals as Leaders, DragonForce, Obscura, Jason Becker, all the difficult songs. But it sounds bad, and again because I have weird social anxiety, I don't like people hearing the sounds of out of key guitar playing. Otherwise I'd be fine just making a song list of the toughest songs.

3. I got Covid. Trust me, you do not want this. I wouldn't even wish it on the people who've committed the most heinous crimes. I am double vaccinated, but I appear to have gotten bad side effects. I have the original Covid, Sars Cov 2 I think? But it's worse because I have long Covid. A cough and a complete loss of taste and smell. Been a month since I had it, and it's really taking a toll on my mental health. I plan on playing more games as a result.

4. My mental health. I sort of go into it here: 

 you can see my art in that too. My only 'Okay' art this year. But the TL:DR is, I feel more depressed because of Covid. I'm struggling to eat and enjoy food because I literally cannot taste or smell anything. Smell has only slightly come back, but even that's fucked up as now, when I smell certain seasonings in things, I smell something else. I would go and sort out my mental health issues, but there's literally no help out there for me. I'm beyond what a therapist could tell me. Therapists can't beat my rationale for reasons for me to commit suicide. Neither can you. 

Before any of this happened, I sorta planned on fixing CDLC people requested I edit, and making a CDLC for a song I like called "Scourge of the Universe" by DM Dokoru. 

Either way, I'm retiring from this until further notice. Plus, I think I have more worthwhile hobbies to do. Art and music really grab my interest. Especially as they are something I want to pursue to give back to the world as my thanks for all the content I've consumed in those areas. I'm mainly an NSFW artist for anyone wondering. I have a Pixiv account, unsure if I can link it. 

Bye. And thanks for all the inspiring CDLC and music that has been posted here, and of course all the CDLC creators.